WE ARE Filipino ft . ME

BARE WITH ME for a minute, 

IT FEELS LIKE  I should tell you all guys about ME first before I make more about Us. 

Gonna need to start at myself first before I move on to next STORY . 

SO, 

let me start from saying my neck name is Apple, I know its kind of wierd but my grands said I was redish when I was born ,and that make sense cause my real name is Ruby ,

I have one big brother who I can say at this point of our lives that Ima super proud of him . ( but kinda I kept it in secret , I mean we're not realy that expressive esp. me . ) 

but even thou, Ima still proud of him  . 

( he will be in my next blog for sure )

so my mom died when I was  5 years  old and father was absent for me and for my big bro cause , mom was the first gf but second one to have baby , and  mom and dad was in not same religion makes ma dads parents doesnt like ma mom . ( that is where I started hating that religion , but not now that I learned the truth ,we'll talk about it next time )

my grands raise me and big bro together with my other cousins, my grands was taking care of 5 grand children that time .

grandfathers origin is from Cebu city, but ma grandma fall inlove with Manila or luzon , so growing up made us come back and forth from manila to cebu and cebu to manila . as a kid its kinda hard to adjust but when we get use to it as we get our teen days , I kinda liked it cause I get the attention and instant famous cause ima  the new kid in neighborhood  . (I know, thats stupid) 

so I was CHEER CAPTAIN when I was in high school,I was 17 years old when me and ma grandma visit my aunt in manila , and eventually my grandma decided to leave me to my aunt so I can go to college , I really dont want grandma to leave me there but  I have no choice , without my grandmas presense, my auntie  can get mad and started hurting me physically and emotionally . 

Ima helping her with her canteen business ,ended up beating me infront of our custumers, she even spread gossips about my dad was a thieft so probably I am thieft  too  . she doesnt know I heard her saying that she thought I was asleep  . It hurt me to my core , and the same day she punched me to my stomach infront of many people eating at her canteen  . I WAS 17  back then . and that day I decided to Run away from her . and I have no one else to go besides a guy who was corting me that time .  

years went by me and him had 4 kids .   but after 7years of being together I ended up my relationship with  him , I wasnt easy for me  to run away home for second time cause this time, I have 4 kids with me . I went back to my grands . but I was to late, my grandma died 2 days before we arrive . my grandpa is still well upto this days , and big bro made a huge changes on his life ,I never really had experience outside , that is why Im doing some living online . 

even back then when I was still with ma kids father, Ima helping him the financial needs . so im doing anything and everything online to survive . 

for now, im doing crypto trading, games and for pass time, I do some blogging . blogging is kinda like a food for my soul and so is music . . being single parents of 4 kids is hard af but Ima have  my family surround me . makes ma life easier . thanks God than even in this hardship ima still have a house and some of my cousins are  living with me . and I have no right to complain With the life I have cause I know someone else is dying to have what I have . some even dont have freedom ,some dont have food, and ima lucky enough that I can pay my monthly bill on internet and spare some bucks for beers . my kids are my weakness and strenght . And Im begging God to take me first before he take one of my child . i know im being selfish saying this . but I cant imagine ma self lossing one of them .  

so lets end this blog with the name of ma kids, 

kyhaenne 

Aiman Suandy

Yana Abegail

Clyde Miguel

Treasure